I read a lot about people who can’t find work and initially I was sceptical about it. This Girl Scribbles Life has been working for the same company since she was a teenager so I feel I really forgot what it was like to have to look for a job.
Well, I didn’t have to look for a job but I felt it was time for a change. Not a problem, so I thought. What an eye-opener though. First of all, there aren’t as many jobs out there are people would like to think. I have read a lot on social media and in the mainstream media about people who don’t have a job just “don’t want to work”. That may be true for a few of them but I think, unless you’re actively looking for a job, you don’t know how difficult it is.
There was a certain anxiety for me regarding looking for a job. Being in full time work anyway did help that but I also wanted to find a new job fairly quickly. Being in work made me a little complacent so I set myself a target. I even considered resigning from the post I was in to give myself a kick up the backside and to “make me” find a new job but I realised, in the end, that it could go disastrously wrong if I didn’t find a new job by the time I was due to leave the one I was in.
I spent hours trawling through job websites, looking through the newspaper, even visiting the job centre but if there isn’t a job, there isn’t a job – I couldn’t magic one up. I started to get frustrated about not getting a new job. I even got anxious. Why couldn’t I find another job?!
In the end, to prevent any more worries, I spoke to my employer, we worked out why I wanted to leave and resolved some issues. So there I stayed. I’m still not 100% sure I want to remain where I am but, at the moment, I wouldn’t want to put myself through the job hunt again.
I have renewed respect for people desperately hunting for a job, it’s difficult, it’s frustrating and can cause a lot of anxiety and that’s coming from someone who had a full time job while looking.